Around this time every year I start to miss central heating and the comforts of a “normal” home.
I start questioning our decision to live the way we do. Back then we could have chosen to rent an apartment in town and I must admit that there are moments when I wish we had.
But I know that these are temporary thoughts. And I know that we made the right decision. We were naive about the things we could achieve in the span of three years. We thought we would have everything paid off and would be able to live half self-sufficient with rain water systems, polytunnel and solar panels. The thought of this now makes me laugh.
We didn’t know anything about raising children and how much time and energy it would take. We didn’t know how time consuming it would be to keep animals, grow vegetables, build our home and make it comfortable. And we didn’t realize how long and hard it would be to repay our loans.
But looking back I’m so glad about our naivety. Too much “realism” would have never brought us to where we are now. I’m glad we had those big dreams because many of them DID come true. And I’m sure that many more will. That’s why I have to remind myself in dark stormy winter nights why we are doing this, why we live like this and that any discomforts now are just temporarily.
How about you? Do you follow a big dream (or a small one) and find it hard to keep on track sometimes? How do you keep up the spirits in difficult times?